i still read a lot of blogs and i've noticed that everyone is coming up with a word for the new year.
one word.
im not so good with goals but one word? i can do one word.
i've actually put a little thought into this and i've thought of a million words but the one i think i'm going to stick with is... ENJOY.
i have recently come to terms with the vast amount of anxiety in my life. i worry about dying, about carlos dying, what to wear, how people perceive me, what is the plan, am i doing enough, do we have enough money, am i working hard enough, did i work out long enough or hard enough. but this has to go.
Carlos and i have so much fun together. we really do. i love being with him and living my life with him. i need to RELAX and ENJOY it more. once we have kids and are old we will look back at this time with fondness. we will remember being young and in love and poor and stupid. i need to BREATHE and know that everything is going to BE OKAY. things will work out. i am good enough.
i want to spend more time with friends and less time stressing. everyone is getting married and everything is still changing just as i predicted, but in a good way.
girls, lets make time for one another. lets build a support system that will stand the tests of time. lets be there for one another no matter what. things are gonna keep changing. our husbands will graduate and we may have babies eventually. people will move and change. but we are important and our friendship is important. lets ENJOY this year together.
